This too shall pass...please God.

To everything there is a season

To everything - turn, turn, turn
There is a season - turn, turn, turn
And a time for every purpose under heaven

A time to be born, a time to die
A time to plant, a time to reap
A time to kill, a time to heal
A time to laugh, a time to weep

To everything - turn, turn, turn
There is a season - turn, turn, turn
And a time for every purpose under heaven

A time to build up, a time to break down
A time to dance, a time to mourn
A time to cast away stones
A time to gather stones together

To everything - turn, turn, turn
There is a season - turn, turn, turn
And a time for every purpose under heaven

A time of war, a time of peace
A time of love, a time of hate
A time you may embrace
A time to refrain from embracing

To everything - turn, turn, turn
There is a season - turn, turn, turn
And a time for every purpose under heaven

A time to gain, a time to lose
A time to rend, a time to sew
A time to love, a time to hate
A time of peace, I swear it's not too late!

"How He Loves Us"

This morning I woke up to this song in my head with the words, "Oh, how he loves us" going over and over again in my head. What a great way to start out the day being reminded of how much God loves me. Saturday mornings are my favorite part of the whole week and it made it that much better!

On another note, Gus' girth is becoming more and more noticeable. It's time to whip out some husky pants for this guy! This boy is a healthy eater...

Sweet, Sweet Heaven...

I have a deep, passionate love for cooking. What do I do when there is not much I can control about life?? I cook. I cook and then I clean. This, my friends, is the best therapy known to man, in my book at least.

Last night, I made a pizza. This pizza came from a recipe I found from the "Pioneer Woman" online. I don't know what I liked better, the sweetness of the caramelized onions or the saltiness of the prosciutto. By the way, I still do not know how to pronounce "prosciutto." I stood at the deli counter last night trying to explain to the deli lady what I wanted to buy. Eventually, I just pointed it out and said, "just give me 8 slices." Little did I know, I pointed to the most expensive "prosciutto" there at the deli. It came all the way from Italy :)

The deli lady looked at me and said, "this prosciutto??"

"Yep! That is what I want."

Ten bucks for 8 slices of prosciutto that I couldn't even feel the weight of in my hands.

This better be the best damn prosciutto I have ever tasted...

Sure enough, after caramelizing the onions, making the dough, wildly fanning the smoke engulfing the smoke detector, then comforting Gus from all the excitement....I tasted a slice of heaven. Purely scrumptious with the burnt mozzarella and all, I am a fan, folks.

New Attitude

Something good is going to happen to me today. I can trust God and I do not have to worry. Coming from a person who likes having control in just about every aspect of life... this is no easy thing for me, but I decided to stop making excuses. I don't need to worry because God is going to work this out for the good. I've always known that there is power in your words, but I thought my thoughts were a different story. I would speak positively, but than I would imagine the worst. No wonder I haven't been content in the past! I have a new way of thinking because why not find joy or the good in every or any situation I may be in? I don't want to look back and think how depressed I was simply because I decided to focus on what hasn't happened.

I thought by the time I was 24 I would for sure be married with a baby or at least one on the way. No question in my mind about it. Since this has been a huge desire of mine ever since I was a little girl playing house, it has been a hard thing for me to swallow that it has not happened for me...yet. Man plans his course, but God directs his footsteps. Since my understanding is not the same as God's, I will hold tight and enjoy life and be thankful. No matter where I go, no matter what happens to me and no matter what obstacle I face I will remember that I am more than a conqueror through Christ who gives me strength.

Back at Square One...

Well, I did it. I took a jump, a leap of faith and here I am. I moved away from everyone I knew, all of my family and everything that is familiar. Maybe I did it because I was desperate to get a job, maybe I did it because there was no other reason to stay, or maybe I did it because I felt like it was an answer to prayer. There is something about being in a new place, by yourself, that forces you to find out who you really are and what is most important to you. I have been here for nearly 6 or 7 months and my, oh my have I seen changes. Changes in myself mainly. I decided to start a blog because what better way to get all out then put it out on the web, right??